2005 Picture! You think you know me? but that's just a lie!

i am wearing color contacts on my eyes to alter the color … they were not prescribed but i loved changing my eyes!

    A picture of me in 2005 , 20 years of age. ya I was young, beautiful, and sexually active and had my whole life ahead of me with so much potential; gay guys wanted to date me . but honestly my feelings were retarded at that time. I never want to go back... what I was feeling and or going through mentally, I wouldn't wish it upon my own worst enemy. and you know if I could show my younger self something I would show him that he is not alone and what he is feeling and or going through is completely normal. did I make a few sins and or mistakes in my life such as stealing money from my parents to go out to the gay bar and other things too. yes but you know what; I payed for it in the long run. 20 years of age is no walk in the park! Being pulled at, in so many directions and I remember not wanting to end up like my parents.. and you know the harder I tried the worse it got. I remember wanting to be a vampire so I could live forever and never have to worry about death. I tried so hard to control what obviously couldn't control.. I really needed a faith or religion during that time but being gay and living the gay lifestyle the Catholics send you right to hell. me being baptized, so I couldn't escape the inevitable when it came to judgment. but on the books its 2022 and I stand corrected and loving life so much that I feel as though I don't have enough life! my time in the spot light I did enjoy myself; yes, but I wouldn't want to go through that again!

2022 o boy how things are so complicated! i will be 37on may22 . all i can say now at this moment in time is .... "it's very complicated"  the voices in my head said "NICE TRY"  what ever that means... lol... a waste of life or was it a waste of your time not my time....  ! u know my younger self for saw that i would end up a low life loser that was overweight and so far up the welfare systems ass of Massachusetts it aint even funny! A  BIG L for loser @!

baby its cold outside and u know what ! i never hurt any one in my life but myself, only my car and that's for another story.. so when you see me Infront OF YOU talking don't act like you know me ! because  I HATE TO SAY IT YOU DON'T KNOW ME ! well after reading these blogs maybe u do know me ... but what does it really matter nothing unless someone is writing a book on me.. the only person that is collecting data from you is either the government for classification purposes or the local institution for science reasons.  the 2 worst organizations that need to know your sin recording ! synthetic recording !