dust to stone!

 at first it seems as though i have the green light to live my life .. but then  once I turn the tv on it as if there are people on the other side telling me i have no rights i am slave, a dog a joke a clown , well you know what i think FUCK WHAT THEY THINK! i truly feel as if someone on the other side of my world or my perspective reality sit there and watch me do things and live life. I seriously feel they should go fuck themselves here they sit behind there televisions watching me ... not sure what they see because i am barely living my life .. i would say i am living at 45% i see people who have lives and i can't help but feel what the hell am i doing wrong. boy life is nothing short of being easy but i swear there are people that are just out to get me and put me down. like a dog. and yet people come to my door wanting more from me.. as if i have anything left to give... i aint going to help you any more... i am saying to myself ... no the line is drawn soon. and this all stops now! the only thing i am missing a job .. and honestly i haven't had a real job since 2006 or 2007 some where around that time. the time now is Wednesday July  20 , 2022... so much time has passed and yet here the tv stands on its pedestal telling me what to do and when to do it.  ya these electrical currents mean something but what really does it mean.  what in gods grace could a fucking television possess rather than a mans life. ya they might be sitting there as a bird free to flock where ever they want... but i am human being with 10 fingers and 10 toes bound to this world as human being the strongest species on the planet . and yet they sit there on there 3rd grade thrown telling me i am less of a human than they are. could it really be a systematic thing where that take life from people who possess life the most... life is what they took from me and life is what i give them... but do i really have a choice for someone i don't see nor i can barely hear them. nevertheless i sit here on my computer as i have been since i have always reemembered watching others live there life.. and i have to give what little life i have to the people who sit behind there televiisions watching me... my life is a lie i was told i am paranoid but i am not i am nothing more than a human being subjected to inhuman people who are starving for something that i have and they want. always comign back for more as if i was a drug to them.. feeding them from head to toe making food from the matter that i possess who makes me a person. i sit here further welcoming the worth of a subjected human race that seems to be diminishing only the wealthy have a stance in this place ... and one who has no job and is disabled from head to toe .... and should i also mention that i am on the spectrum  making dust to stone.